Now at home.

Today was good.
I got to talk to some people about recent events in my life.
They all told me the same thing:
There are more women out there.
True.
Just have to find them.
Also my nan said that my prayer should be for now is to ask God to lead me to the person that He wants me to spend my life with.
I am already asking.
Now the waiting time begins..

Hmm.. Vegetarianism

I have been looking into it for a while now today. I mean there are no bad effects of it.
I am not a full vegetarian, and i dont knock it as i lived with a vegan for two years(my nan) so i know what its like.
But because i want to do bodybuilding, i am interested in what it does for that.
Surprisingly, it does alot.
So does that mean i will become vegetarian overnight?
No.
But i am changing slowly in that direction.
slowly.
but surely.
also about muscle growth.
very interesting stuff. =]

Sabbath begins..

Now that Sabbath has started, i see it as a new beginning.
I was wondering whether to write how i feel on this.. if i should..
to be honest, i dont want to because if people want to know, they can ask.
Either way, to me, I will move on, and become stronger through this.
Its night now.
Yet I want sunshine.
I have that longing... which means one thing...
I want eternity.
I want security..
and comfort..
God will take care of me..
always does..
always will.
even when i feel like absolute crap and i feel like I will never be happy and whole..
He uses that time to bring me and to hold me closer than a human being can.
Like other people say, "there are other fish in the sea."
and i say that's true..
now all i have to do is face the sea and cast again.

The Day is done. the Night begins..

It's over.
On the single road again.
So much for so little.
It hurts in a sense and it doesnt because i asked God for help.
Oh well. No point dwelling on it.
Time to do what i have to do and that is that.
God, help me to move forward. And not to dwell on the past.
Even if it was the best at that present time.

Life right now is good

Chatting to her..
listening to some calm music..
playing a game..
and just calm..
nice =]

He he ^^

I just realised one other thing.
She is amazing as in AMAZING =]
I do love how she wants to know what i do and stuff =]
That was it =]
^.^

I have come to one realization

And it is this.
She was right. I have nothing to fret over. I dont know why i was anyway. well i think i was because i didnt want to hurt her. that is the last thing even closest to my mind. i never want to hurt her in anyway shape or form. so i guess when i felt that way, i thought i did. so it was to make sure that i didnt i guess.
go figure that one out.
anyway.
I dont think she knows at times how much she means to me.
I am glad i have her; she knows that part. But i mean i am just happy that she is in my life, and that she prays for me.
God knows i need it.
I think that is why i hold onto this. I dont want to lose what i have with her.
I enjoy her company, and her smile and her laugh.
It makes me want to live more than i do now =]
At the end of it, God helps me continue to love and support her.
As i grow in Him, He helps me to say and think and act right according to her.
Only God Himself knows the full extent of how much i love her.
And that is fine with me.
=]
The Devil isnt winning this night.
Victory to God.
Onwards and Upwards.

Its Late

But i am up.
not a night time late night person, but i am up.
but at the moment, i feel.. how can i put it..
sad.
He may feel like fearing to fail.
i feel like i am fearing to fail and fearing in general.
over what?
because i feel at this moment in time that i did something.
though i didnt.
so why feel like this?
sometimes i wonder if i torment myself because i like doing it.
i dont, but sometimes i wonder.

Woo.. =]

Well my phone finally gave up the ghost.
After two years of faithful service, my Samsung D900i, died on 2/11/2010 at 1:34 pm.
The funeral is to be planned. ='[
So now I went and got a new phone, the LG Cookie in Black =]
and it is so awesome =]
anyway i am writing stuff for my first book, and julius is my assistant manager. =]
nice.
=]
listening to classic fm as well =]
so all's good.

ARGH

FINALLY GOT THE SIMS: WA AND I CANT PLAY IT BECAUSE MY SPECS ARENT ALL UP 2 SCRATCH!
SPENT 2 HOURS TRYING TO FIND STUFF FOR IT, AND NOW I AM TRYING TO SEE IF I CAN GET AN UPGRADE FOR THE CPU..
DARN THING..
ANYWAY BESIDES THAT.
DAY WAS AWESOME=]
WENT TO BALDOCK, HITCHIN AND LETCHWORTH. =]
AND WENT CRAZY FAST =]
WOO

I sorted out what I need to do

Right. Now that i got some money, the theory test i can book soon.
then 3 more lessons and then i can go in for the practical.
by the end of march, i can pass =]
if all goes to plan.
Mom's birthday today!
She loved her present which came today as well :D
THANK YOU AMAZON =]
Missing Jodi. =[
but seeing her sunday!!! :D
SO HAPPY FOR ASHLEY AS WELL.
GO YOU MAN =]

Home..

Now i am home..
i am a bit cold in the feet area..
also got some programming to do =]
and some chem and math !
someone say yay :D
Yay =]

A lot to say..

I was going 2 write earlier. but i had class so i had to wait.
got some work to catch up on for math but i can handle that.
i am going to start mma again.
at college atm, which is cool.
i wonder what jodi is doing ^^.
going to go home and do some work and then some japanese.
gotta hand in those cv's.
talk about alot to do..
i cant remember now what to do.. he he.
i got my mom's card.
may have to wait for the present though.
lol
cant wait til Jodi gets here!
well not here but we're going to London for the day !!
^^.
noice.
=]

Hmm

Two months today blog..
nice =]
I am so amazingly happy. =]
that was it :D

Today was nothing short of awesomeness

Everything was good =]
had 10 hours sleep.
noice..
worship was amazing.
noice.
driving lesson was amazing.
noice.
i understand a lot more than i thought. =]
noice. =]
i am in love with Jodi.
=]
noice.
she makes me so amazingly happy.
noice.
everything is good.
thanks to God=]
noice.
you know what?
noice. =]