Thought about a lot before writing this..

Over the past couple of days, it has been pretty chill and not doing much sort of mood. Except for using my touch and phone for internet. Now that the internet is in my room once again (came today! woo), I can use it for the remainder of my stay in Stevenage.


Another thing that came across my mind is how I treat people; it is getting better, but I know I can improve and be better. I just saw one of my friends blog after not being in the blogging scene for a long time, and I am glad she is again :) I just hope she enjoys uni and clings to God, even though she has rough patches she goes through.

That's another thing I thought about. Over the month of September, Boo and I have been reading devotionals on suffering and pretty much everything about it. And its a lot of stuff, and gets put into practice pretty much now and then, or if we can encourage others. Although at the present time, my life isn't too hard right now, I know sorrow comes and goes. But in faith, I will make sure I cling to Jesus, because without Him, I know I don't have a snowball's chance in getting anything done spiritually.

So to all reading this, if you are going through anything, ask God to help you cling to Him. If you aren't religious, what harm can it do if you ask God for help and to get to know Him?

There are many things in my mind right now, as i am writing; the clouds look nice, even though it is starting to get colder; I can't wait to sign up to the gym; I miss Boo and I can't wait to see her on Sunday :)

Sometimes, I have to realize in order to appreciate what I have, I kind of have to see what people don't have , for example I have an amazing girlfriend who understands me and wants to be with me, even when I am not 100% like Jesus. Some people don't have that kind of relationship, even if they have someone. So i am grateful for what God has allowed me to have, and I make sure everyday that I don't take her, or anything that I have been given for granted.

Another thing however that I noticed, is that I am very absorbed in what I do; I don't usually get into other people's lives that much, and my mom brought that to my attention the other night. And I now realize that it isn't a good thing. I can't be in everyone's lives at the same moment, but it is good to keep regular contact with people, even family.

Another thing that came across to me is that I am going to become vegetarian for 3 months with Boo; but it is funny; i remember saying to my Nan years ago, that i wouldn't mind going in that direction, but i just didn't have the motive and drive for it. And she said that the same way i went off pork, is the same way i will go off meat( she is vegan, but will never force it down your throat kind) and that God will do that when He sees best. So now, I have that motive and drive missing all those years ago; and God gave me a partner, Boo, to do it with :) So honestly, i can't wait to see and feel the changes. :) It isn't a salvation issue, but I know it will help me much more than the diet I have now.

I also have been reading the old posts I have on here over the past couple of weeks, and I can see the changes that I have made; and also on this computer, as well. I have gone from being obsessed about boobs (yea Joy, it is hard being so open on this for sure), to know being single-minded about women as a whole. It took a lot of time and God made sure of this, and it's still a work in progress, but my attention is redirected now towards long term goals, not instant ones.

And one last thing; now this is the hardest part for me in a sense but I am glad and i can say thank You only to God for this; it has been over a year since I looked at porn and did associated stuff with it ( you can see i'm not so open as to even mention the m word but either way). I realized that the reason I had such obsessions and stuff was simply because of that. it will take time for it to go completely (it was a habit for over 8 years), so I know it won't go just like that. BUT God will greater than my old sins and habits, so I know finally I can say AMEN! :D And I say that because there were times, and many times, when i pleased myself and wanted to stop but was just locked into it hard. And the one thing I can say to those who struggle guy or girl, wanting to stop, is to get on your knees or whatever position you do to pray to God and plead and ask Him wholeheartedly to eradicate this habit from the life. It is truly soul-destroying and mind-numbing, and I don't want to go back to it EVER. I rather wait to get married to Naomi, and have all the sex we want then to cheat on her and God before her. So the wait is worth it; and I know God will set people free from doing it, if they ask Him and abstain from it, because He did it for me.

That's all for now :)

Im home again :D

So now im back in Stevenage (til sunday anyway) and its nice being back for a bit. :D Mom was like  when she saw me :D and she made dinner (me love mi mom's food:))


However, updates on whats been happening this weekend :D On the way to Boo's house,which i ended up being late for so went to practice at church. Got on the train, and didnt even realize that the train went straight to London and didnt stop in Slough at all! I was like... "Really?!" However, because I thought it was and after praying about it and telling the man at the barrier, he let me through, and the train was about to leave :D


God is too good to me :)

So the choir practice was good, but i was also glad to get to her house to sleep. :]

Music day itself was good; long (very long day) but nevertheless good :)
Got to play with other guitarists, and even though I didnt get to do my own stuff, i played all day so it wasnt too bad for me =]

Got to meet her Mom for the first time, and it was nice =] shes very nice :)

Then after everything was over, went back to hers, and slept hard =]

Then today was a case of just devotion, then listening to the audio bible, and we both fell asleep :p then waking up and listening to some more then i left and came to Stevenage =]

Another thing that i was going to say was that i left my charger at my house in Reading; however, God came through for me because my mom found one i could use for my phone :D

Also mom spoke about things i can get for my birthday (useful things i need)
Looking forward to this week :)

All in all, God is good.

Period
:)

No structure to this, just writing...

Just finished having my devotion, which was on faith being tested. All along this month, it has been along that theme. And I have learned by reading, and also by experience what that means. But aside from that, I was just planning on writing for the past couple of days, but never got around to it.

So just a recap of what I've been up to:

Spent from Friday to Wednesday at Boo's house, and it was really nice, but it felt so weird coming back here seeing as i was there for so long; i even forgot how to turn the hot tap in my kitchen(it has no indicators saying which is which)! That is truly sad :P However, there were trials when I was there, and I learned, as I said above, that i gleaned lessons from.

Music day is this coming Sabbath, so that will be interesting, as well as on the Sunday I am off to Stevenage. Looking forward to seeing people, including Louis, so that we can have bible study and just in general to see my mom and things.

I also realized that I am rusty when it comes to my Japanese; i havent given it the time i should have done, so i am struggled where i probably shouldnt be. And so because of that, i need to study it today. Also, I just slightly lazy today, but I know that i need to make sure i do not waste time(thats a serious flaw in my character).

Also for Unity, it has been going ok. But i know it will get harder to do, and to be honest, as i was looking at it last night, i nearly didnt want to do it. But at that time, it was late, and everything felt like a mountain when it probably wasnt.

So today for improvements! :D

I get to control the speed... of a box!! :D

So from the last Unity post, I've learned quite a lot :D
Most of it was programming knowledge I had already, but with new keywords. So at the moment, I am scripting a box to move and controlling it's speeds by watching the console and adjusting it :p so i can make it zoom or trudge along or (the nerd part of me came out!) make it go in slow motion :D

hehhehe. more to come as I tear it up :P

Updates on a lot of things :)

So its been a little while, since I've updated the goals, so i thought I would do.

The muscle one first- I actually weigh 84 kgs not 86.5! Found this out when i went to the gym, and was like wow! Even so, the BF is still 16 lbs, just but still. So now i am going to sign up to the Uni's gym with my friend Chris, and I actually am looking forward to it! :D


for the song one, I kinda backslipped on that one. I havent played guitar consistently for a long time, and i need to improve again. I lost a lot, so i need to regain, so today i am going to spend time playing and developing a routine for me to get into so i can become great :)

for the water intake, i am doing good :D getting to drink 3 liters a day nearly as consistent when i was at work :)

also getting a wii by this weekend cos i want to zumba and not have to use videos :P

=]

Also can't wait to start this health reform for 3 months with Boo. should be good :)

and this is what I've done :D

So this is the beginning of it, using the terrain as a surface then making  hills and valleys :D

then adding on textures such as cliff rock and other stuff :)

Finally adding on grass and other stuff :)

So far, its been pretty interesting to say the least :) I am going to take a break from this, and then come back to it later on in the day :)

So.. Part 1 of unity..

So far its going good :D

I know how it works and i am getting comfortable with how to use it :)

only thing is because this is boo's laptop, there is no mouse. which can be a bit annoying, but i am getting used to that.. itll be fun when i can use my mouse and stuff :D


so for today i'll go up to learning about the terrain, then take a break (wash the dishes and other stuff), and come back to this later on..  :D its good though :D

and a lot to take in, but i take it in really fast, so thats good cos there are 2 exams for this anyway about all I learned. :)

should be fun :D

Unity 3D: step 1.. learning the basics..

I thought about making a new blog for this but then i was like "That's too much going back and forth",so i just decided to blog about it on here.

Any-whoo.. so far on the facebook group, there are 5 of us now, and I have been posting like mad on it as well :P at least the others are reading it as well :D


so today for Unity, I planned on going through the course syllabus provided for free (best word in the world at times :p) by the Walker Brothers. I did a Typology test, which turns out I am INFJ (introvert, intuitive, feeling and judging) type person. What that means right now, not too sure, but it was part of what i had to do, so it wasn't too bad :)

So right now, as the Unity software is being installed on my memory stick, I am also looking forward to today. I got stuff planned to do while Boo is at work (dishes and zumba and stuff), so I am really looking forward to today :D

Lets get started!

IJN! (In Jesus' Name)

:)

Making a game is going to be long yet I know im gonna enjoy it!

So the idea came to me to make a game using a software program called unity 3d. I've set a group on Facebook and so far four people beside me are on it.

However there is a lot to learn before the word go so I need to wait til the deadline so that the group can introduce themselves to each other and so that we can then get started from there.

As for me I might as well start learning all I can so that when the deadline starts I can organize more stuff.

This will be a long process. However I am excited because I know I can do all things through Jesus :)