Havent written in a long time..
Whether people read this or not.. different story...
I love my life; my job is ok, and my friends are good to me..
But right now, the way is dark.... I made a mistake by inviting someone over not knowing they liked me and when She found out, she is now in a state.
And now that i realise that, I am scared to the bone.
What do i do, realizing that my chance with this girl that i am good friends with could go up in smoke because of a error i did even in innocence?
I dont want to lose her respect, her trust or her liking for me.
But what if i crossed the line. Even though she understands, i am just a mess on the inside..
I messed up.
I did wrong by inviting my friend over.
Even when i try to NOT think about this, I can't help BUT think about this.
God help me please..
I didnt do this on purpose. Yet I am paying a hefty price for such a motive that wasnt 2 faced.
I want to rip my heart out; I havent been in this much pain since.. since.. my ex.. and this right now, feels worse.. We arent even going out yet, and I feel this much pain and anguish.
Looking at myself, I see pain.. and things indescribable. I don't want to lose what I have been trying to get all this time...
Her Heart
What do I do???
