Archers, at the Ready!

So today I finally got to do archery! :D
Although i missed the first time, I felt like this:

:) 

afterwards, I actually hit the target :D 

basically today was good, but that was what i was really looking forward to!

also i thought to myself how i need to revamp my guitar as well as japanese skills. 

Needs to be done, as I am good at both and I know i can be better :) 

thats it for now :)

OOOH!

also got SSX :) (game is so amazing :) )

what a weekend this was :D

this weekend was mad! :D
friday, after work, dropped off my tithe and then went to get Naomi from the station :D
and after all the talking we did, everything is back to normal (prayer works! trust me and try it out! :D)
the food we had was wonderful (im marrying a woman who can cook ! :D ) and we opened Sabbath as well with a prayer, as we fell asleep afterwards.
So the Sabbath morning, we went to Oxford! and we met Gilbert and Oabopa at the station :D
it was a nice ride and when we got to Oxford church, it was so nice :)

it was Tshepo's last sabbath in the Uk so had to make sure i was there and also Naomi was playing as well :)
while there i met a man called Michael, who is from the US and we chatted with Chris, another American and it was so much  fun :D

the train ride back was good as well, and the whole day was filled with goodness, and i even got to speak Japanese to a Japanese lady that attended that church! :D was so nice :)

Today, we slept in; well i did until like half 8 ish, couldnt sleep after that, and Naomi just plain ol' slept. (woman would sleep all day if she could.. i tell you ~.~)
made pancakes, which were nice, and also watched the Opening Ceremony for the Olympics , which was amazing!
And we play fought abit and also spoke more about marriage as well and sorta getting stuff sorted for that as well.
Dropped her off and now im tired, but all in all it was good :)

also got my hair braided :P

then unbraided :)

Loving my new job =D

I gotta admit, my new job is amazing! :D
i work with kids at a summer camp and its just been one ride after another! :D
from playing uno to kids making me stuff and also a circus man today, it was so good :D
and plus the weather is so amazing as well :D thank you God for this :D

and tonight i made some serious experimentation dinner :D pictures all coming up now :D

Mike the circus man. he has an awesome beard :D

lego i built (most of it was done already)

thats just some of what it is in the game room! :O 

Charlotte drawing me :D 

found this interesting as we SDA's have a dietary need :p

tasted so nice :D

also to Naomi:
Love you booboo, even more after the Great Incident :D
See you soon :)

This isn't how I want to go home. Can't we start over?? Please?

I shouldn't even be writing this. But I'm writing it as a chapter in my life which was written without my consent. Today was a good day. It went so smoothly. Boo went to work I stayed at her house and did what I had to do. Dinner was fantastic. Then all of a sudden, like a cloud in a deep blue cloudless sky the atmosphere changed and I wasn't even aware.
I didn't think going to the bus stop would be such a painful experience. But we walked in silence yet it was louder than a jet engine to me. We didn't even hold hands, why I don't know. Part of me wanted to but didn't know if she would respond. And so we walk in silence. Step after agonizing step. Then we get to the bus stop and she keeps on walking and I stopped because I thought it was clear to us both this was where I had to wait. But she kept walking. And every step was painful to my heart. Crushing it with every step. The legs I love to watch walked all over heart it seemed. And the worst part to me was that she didn't even turn around. Misunderstanding? Probably but even when she turned and saw me standing there, dumbfounded, she still walked. Which multiplied my pain beyond bearability. It just hurt me so much because she has never hurt me this much. Ever. Little things yea but we made up. What made this worse is that there was no discussion of what the problem was at all and no goodbye or anything. That's what killed me. And that's when the one she promised wouldn't enter entered.
Doubt.
Doubt that she cared about me or maybe I was a nuisance at that moment in time. And I never ever felt doubtful of her love to me. So right now this is new territory and I do not like it one bit.
Right now Im just praying. Because I know what I want to do but doing it is another thing altogether.

What a blast yesterday was! :D

So! Finally got to Reading and it felt like everything ran like clockwork; and i mean every train pretty much!
i felt like this after getting to Reading:

it was that fast! I got here in under 1 hour 20; which is just woop!
Anyway, that isnt the best bit! This was!

thats how i was like when i saw Naomi :)

seriously it has been 10 days, and it felt so long :P 

I couldnt wait to see her!! :D and she even tried to surprise me in the station :p although i was leaning against the wall of a machine looking cool :P as is she didnt see me (prob didnt)

anyway so when we got back to mine, we just spoke and play fought (the usual) and we just spoke in such depth that its hard to describe it (marriage stuff for the future ;)) 

i can truly say that Naomi is the one for me :D not a day goes by that i cant say that and just be like this:

:)

Last night in stevenage

Tired and shattered is what I am. Now gonna sleep and then back to reading. It was good here. Didn't see as much people as I wanted but that's how it goes. Anyway sleep time! I love sleep!

Synopsis of yesterday and also today :)

So yesterday was good :D got to catch up with Vimbai with Nando's (which we both destroyed) and also bowling (which i completely owned at): just for proof sake:

even got a strike  :D

then i went on the dance machine they had: (just to let y'all know, i LOVE THE DANCE MACHINE!)

and then i went home, where the day before i got this from my aunt as she knows i do a oriental language: only the book was chinese not japanese but her friend got it for her, and she thought of me so the thought counts :D

it looks like a stamp collection thing but it looks pretty although i cant read it. 

anyway for today:

had another bath; this time it was so hot :D was so nice :D 

what i also wanted to say was what ive been thinking about with regards to Naomi;

she is just amazing :) everyday, there is something new to discover and love and just be like "wow, one day soon this will be mine forever xD" 

I am so fortunate to have her :D 

and thats that :D i go back to reading 2moro, so night in with mom, teaching her how to game.. 

whilst on that subject..

first time she played a game console i believe :p

had to break her into Fruit Ninja as well :D she did pretty well =D

Woo :D

Today was a new start for sure :D

Woke up a bit late, still had time with God and Naomi :)
She went off to work but as she was she told me she was going to South Africa this time next year.
and the first thing i thought was this:

Now what ran through my mind was stuff like, "she's going away!" and i thought that because i wanted to be with her there as well, that i was being too needy, or controlling or any other negative emotion.
i didnt realize to just right now that, that the reason i thought i was being needy was because of in my past relationships i was either told i was a bit needy or i thought i was and that was why the relationship ended or something. so there are still things from the past that i didnt know are still there like this issue.

so afterwards i spoke to her about it and she said to me that it was so sweet and so cute and (other girly things as well) that i wanted to be where she is all the time. while i thought, "really? it sounds like a stalkerish thing to me! how do you see that differently?!" but anyway, i believe what she says. after all, she is speaking her mind, so another i realized is that i need to trust what people say and not think, "they don't really mean that"; seeing that is another issue ive had for years. yet that in itself is strange, seeing as i can trust people easily. she sees is as i moved up from behaving like a boyfriend to starting to behave like a husband :')

(She always see the potential in me!)

after this, we spoke about marriage as well and the aspects of it. and afterwards, i thought about it myself when brushing my teeth.

i thought to my own self, "am i ready for marriage?" would people see me as ready somewhat for it or am I not? did some serious speaking to God with that.

so now the cardio:
Mom went out somewhere, so i decided to myself,
"Self?"
"yep."
"lets do cardio."
"its been a while; lets do it :D"

(yea, those kinda conversations happen in my brain :D)

Go heart! :D

i didnt look like the guy on the machine; i was just in the zone.

so while doing cardio, i spoke to Jesus :) i use those times to speak all heart to heart.

all about the marriage things and all sorts. it is so nice to know i can speak to God and know He hears me and loves me more than i can ever imagine :)

now i got to get ready :D

meeting Vimbai for bowling, catching up and her favorite, Nando's

many black people have lost their chicken virginity to this place.

and then afterwards meeting up with someone else and then back home for some japanese study, which i was going to to now, but i need to shower and leave :p

=] 

Awesome day today!

What a awesome day I had! From hanging out with my best friend Rasheed to telling one of my close friends how God feels cares about them, it was amazing. And Naomi herself conquering her 13 hour shift I'm so proud of her :D

Now I'm off to sleep :D

What a day today!

Today was simply and still is amazing. Woke up and had devotion with Naomi then off to church. Sabbath school was amazing and it was about witnessing to people, but reaching them where they are. Very interesting and practical. As well as Matthew coming as well was so nice though he still has questions. Glad it's a start :)

Then the sermon was on much given much required. Was so thoughtful. Then walked matt back to town an wet back to church. Now here is where it gets awesome to the nth level!

As we were doing it, we spoke about three themes although I only remember the forgiveness one because we spent so long on it and I got an idea alongside with naftal my friend to do a series. It was just so blessed and I felt that God was there for sure and it was so practical as well! And then I though about how amazing it is to have a girlfriend who has a spiritual dimension as well :) it binds us together than if we didn't have that aspect :) just so nice :)
For sure I can see her as my future wife and definitely in my future :) I told people at church about her and one day I'll introduce her to them :) it'll be nice :)

Now I'm home at nannie Winnie after eating and just writing now and just relaxing :) today surely was a nice and awesome day :)

Ahh sabbath time now

Today was a up mostly day. Mom went to London to show friends from America around and I stayed here. Went to David's and did stuff there. But the main thing that I wanna talk about is how I feel about the devotion I had tonight with Naomi. Earlier this morning , we both felt :/ because we just felt we lacked joy in our time together with God and prayed about it. I am starting to see that it is changing and thanking God for that :) however tonight when we had our devotion, it was so deep and enthralling and I didn't want it I end. It was about repentance. And basically During and after it I was just so happy an joyful because of what the change I could experience. Also another thing was just Naomi herself.

She is simply amazing to me. From being drop dead Gorgeous on the eyes to being so connective spiritually, I can say without a doubt she turns me on in every sphere :) I am beyond grateful that I have her as a girlfriend :)

She is that amazing and just wonderful. :)

Reflections and Resolutions

Ive decided today that things have to change within me; things like how i speak to people, what i speak about, how i view people, how i view women, how i view life in general.

its from watching what people say and what is on tv that is filth and annoyance as well as looking at myself.
i recognize what i am and i dont like it.
it is helping becoming more like God and thats the goal for me.

therefore all i can do is ask God to help me and then to trust He will and obey and change and take the things out of my life that need to go and curb things that have to wait til a better time; otherwise, things will take a worse turn instead of a good one.

this was kinda a rant to myself, but there we go.

not all of the posts are always :D

some are a bit of a thinker:

:) bubbles

Today I had a bubble bath.
I felt like this:

It's been a long time since I had one.
My mom made it for me and it was nice :) while I was in it, I closed my eyes since she was washing my back and i left them close for a bit. And then afterwards while they were closed, I thought what it would be like to Seeger the first time. To picture myself like a blind person. And when I thought how fortunate I was to have my sight, I nearly cried. Many people in this world either are born in darkness or through a unfortunate occurrence lose it. In glad I haven't. To never to be able to see the sunset, or my mom, or Naomi but to hear their voice would be surreal to me. So I thanked God from the depth of me that I had my sight and I appreciated from then even more my vision.

Thought Id share that today. That's why bubble baths are now important to me.

I'm going to have them more often :)

Finally home (stevenage not USA)

So now I'm home. In bed and tired. Met up with Rasheed and its been a while and I'm happy :) Trip down was good and ting. (I'm that tired) and now it's like tired. Naomi Is amazing and the pictures were amazing :) now imma do devotion and sleep. Been a long day of stuff. :)

Night :)

More to come but first this.

So Spain was amazing! :D But because i don't have the pictures, ill leave that blog til when i do :)

Today was good and also very self revealing for a lack of better wording. I knew that when I am alone, its a bit ish :/ but today when Naomi left, i realized how alone i was in the house and it was dreadful.
I just felt so sad on the inside..
Until I started remembering Scripture in my mind and this only one came to mind:
Joshua 1:5  There shall not any man be able to stand before thee all the days of thy life: as I was with Moses, so I will be with thee: I will not fail thee, nor forsake thee. And to be honest, I was saying to Jesus, "You said this! Please do it now because I feel very much alone." Afterwards, the loneliness went away and I sang, and i dont usually sing, although the songs were in my head, it was nice that the loneliness went away through songs of praise and stuff :)


showed me how much I needed God's promises and how music could banish away the loneliness :) 


Also I watched Henry IV and also Wimbledon, and I played Basketball as well :) and spoke to my Mom via Skype.. so all in all, a good day :)