The road to Italiano starts now :D

Mark this day! September 27th 2011

the day i started Italian :D
also the day wasnt too bad as well : D

Its about time i do a new one..

Its been a long time, since i have done a blog..
a Proper one anyway..

Asda is treating me good cant complain =]

Staying in touch with old friends and making new ones as well.

Friends help along life's journey for sure.. Thanks Joycee for that quote =]

Also the weight training and cardio is paying off =]

Pictures soon!

Also I was thinking about why things happen in the world.. I know it is because of how it is, but things that are good are usually never reported.. And that sucks..

people want this world to be better; but it will only get worse and worse..

and in that time now,
we need to prepared for the big trouble that is ahead...


it will engulf the whole world..


and noone will be left out..

aside from that, im tired and just ahh... well tired :D

Got a driving lesson 2moro and buying a bike finally :D

as well as a interview 2moro at 2 =]

well thats it for now =]

No title..
Just words.. on a page...

Its been a long time since i wrote anything..
and part of me is happy and sad that i am writing..

I need to be a better person; a better Christian and a better someone overall..

I need the prayers of those i love to help me...

Things arent easy but noone said it would be.

God will help but I need to do my part and believe He will help me..

Thats all I can do...

Sanity works best when you dont force it into a box

Havent written in a long time..

Whether people read this or not.. different story...

I love my life; my job is ok, and my friends are good to me..

But right now, the way is dark.... I made a mistake by inviting someone over not knowing they liked me and when She found out, she is now in a state.

And now that i realise that, I am scared to the bone.

What do i do, realizing that my chance with this girl that i am good friends with could go up in smoke because of a error i did even in innocence?

I dont want to lose her respect, her trust or her liking for me.

But what if i crossed the line. Even though she understands, i am just a mess on the inside..

I messed up. 
I did wrong by inviting my friend over.
Even when i try to NOT think about this, I can't help BUT think about this. 


God help me please..


I didnt do this on purpose. Yet I am paying a hefty price for such a motive that wasnt 2 faced. 


I want to rip my heart out; I havent been in this much pain since.. since.. my ex.. and this right now, feels worse.. We arent even going out yet, and I feel this much pain and anguish.


Looking at myself, I see pain.. and things indescribable. I don't want to lose what I have been trying to get all this time...

Her Heart

What do I do???

Its been too long.... -__-

Well even though it has been too long there is lots of good news :D

In no particular order:

• I got a job at Asda after much praying =] 
• Someone likes me :D 
• exams soon ( how is that  a good thing?!)
• family is ok.. 
• my spiritual life is going up
• this isnt getting much punctuation....
• I am enjoying my life :D 
• God is amazing =] (What else is new? :P  ) 
• also being President of VGS aint bad :D 

Now aside from that, its raining at the moment, not too hard but still meh _-

But i am happy, no joyful because God is amazing :D 

It is Good!!

I got my PHOC results!! :D for those who are wondering part of my modules which is the computing part :P

I got 75% for my test! :D

and 72.9% for my weekly tests!!

I got so happy I done the Crash Dance!

=]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eIClP_pPAZo&feature=related seen here :D

all in all: BOOYA and thanks to God :D ^.^ 

Now to go and get those weights and pull up bar from Tesco :) 

Things are clear when you dont think about it..

Since now is the term break, I have more free time..
Time to do what I want..

Time to think...

The brain is a fascinating thing....

So much is in my head at this moment, its hard to put down..

:)

Time for Reflection...

Tomorrow will be the last day of term for me..
Amazing how it has gone so fast..
So what to do for Easter??

Defo need to revise...
Others arent out yet.. but some will be free from now maybe ;]

I do miss my mom now :L and dad even more :)

But like before, this is what it is like having to stand on my own two feet..

Atm, I'm just reading Japanese...

although there is a exam tomorrow, I'm not too bothered about it..

I just thought about something..
To be able to blog in Japanese..

Thats a challenge indeed...

Hmm...

For now, I'm just going to read and then think..

Do what I do best..

:)

Last night (and day) was 0.o

I'm so tired, I'm about to sleep; but before i do, i might as well say how the day was..
I went to the Emirates yesterday... woo to those who like football i guess..
not a fan..
it was for a men's meeting which wasnt too bad.. got to catch up with ppl i havent seen in over a year! :D

got lost on the way, thanks to my phone which i will replace! :D

htc ahem ;]

then went to Esther's surprise bday party;] was good
so tired now! :D
so sleep time! :D

and that was it :D

Amazing Things Happen When You Just Close Your Mouth..

I feel like I'm in a bit of a reflective state. Well I am actually.

Ever since I came back from Oxford, I have been reflecting and thinking and I realised that I need to depend on God more and myself less.

I also miss my mom and dad every now and then..

But I also realise that this is what Uni is..

If it doesnt make you in a phrase "man up", then is it doing the job?

Some people leave because they can't face it.

I'm glad I got God otherwise I COULDNT face it.

But I have also been reading Niel's blog as well; amazing when you read life from other people's perspective...

I do realise i need to praise and thank God more and that I like in this..

Specially I need to eat more fruit and veg; not because anyone said, but because i was reading about it tonight with a friend via Skype, and she was saying about the topic, and it led me to think of putting it into place..

Plus, i am getting tired of meat..
There are other alternatives, and cheaper as well.

May God help me to understand how to operate this body of mind properly..

Also i need to lose weight and gain muscle..

What am i waiting for??

Good question..

But for now.. I need to spend time with the Maker.. He's waiting, and I'm yearning. ;]

Today was long!! -.-

And i mean long!
man!
dont even want to describe it, it was that long!
and a headache as well didnt help!

ah.. and the fact that i got lots of work to do by deadlines means i need to be praying so much more!

God help me please! :D

A good day and a nostalgic one ^.^

Today I went back to Stevenage. It was good surprising Mom and seeing ppl from school :D

specially seeing David =]
Who made me cake and lunch :D

Those who i didnt see I will next time I am down =]

Really happy for my mom :D

Then came to Reading and went to VGS straight now home programming :D

overall, Good day :D

Thanks God ^.^

Awake with a purpose

I'm starting to see what it means to have simple faith..
Just to not let feeling get into the way of it..

As i'm sitting here listening to Chinese music, it makes me relax and just chill out.

Also i went to the community center to help in the soup kitchen; although i didnt do that much, it felt good doing what i did, and i just thought about becoming more like Christ and less like myself.

It was a good time.

Also making dinner for me and Joe was fun too :D

Hmm..

Also with thinking as well, I'm not going to give into feeling lonely because God is here with me, and He doesnt want me to feel like I'm all alone because I'm not.

Hot Dang!!

Well its nearly time for easter..
and that means for me...
1 month and 2 days off!
so before that happens, I'm gonna do all my work BEFORE easter starts! :D

so far, im doing bad..
cant complain really :D

today was long... just felt long!!!!
but it was good..
i just despise 4-5 on a thursday..
hopefully by next week if we finish the material, (God-willing) we dont have to show up! :D

^.^

and ppl at church wondering where i was :D

aww =]
at least i am missed ;]

XD

New Day.. what a weekend..

The trial is over, and i kinda gone back to eating meat again..
but from this, i learned that i want to eat less and less meat..
also, i need to be closer to God, as i know that i am not where i should be..
so i took some steps; cleaned out the things that pulled me away, and as hard as it feels now to do it, it is worth it.
i cant waste time on what i dont have time for..
but it will be worth it..

also i need to list what is needed in my fridge and get it as well..
so i need to make the list today and get it for wednesday..


God help me to follow You with all that i have please..

Day 9: Its that day already?!

So far in this 10 day walk, there were ups and downs..
but i have kept to it.
instead of making it a 10 day, after this, im going to keep going with it.
some say that i need more time in order to see the effects of this trial, so i'll do that ;]

this day has been good, thanks to God:D

Day 8: Nice day 2day :D

Good things happened today :D
i got my passport :D
i had pizza with my friends and did work as well :D
now just chilling and heading to bed early 2nite since i was tired from last night and didnt sleep til 3 =/

cant wait for sleep :D

Day 7: So far so good

So far i have been keeping to the diet ;]
as for the sleeping on time.. not so much..
i can see that i need more control over myself, as i fall into things that i dont want to fall into..

as for now, im eating a pb and j sandwich while watching house :D

Day 5: Yum Yum!

Today was a late day.. I woke up at 11 :P
Did worship, played games, and did some work.
now im about to eat my dinner of stir fry with veggie burger sandwich! :D

thought about the sandwich part as i was watching the burgers cook :D

and now about to watch hustle ;]

good times =]

Day 4: Getting there

Sorry about not doing day 2 and 3!
i forgot! ><
Basically i kinda deviated in the not going to sleep early part, but nothing else really!
Today was good, and since i went to my regular place of eating, it was vegetarian anyway :D

Now im home and about to do some work.. speaking of which my room needs to be hoovered...

:D

First Day of the Trial

Day One: The day was hectic, and man it was fast paced!
What i had today was pizza but it was a veggie pizza, but it was good. ;]
But the day was like whoa, because I had to mail something, go to asda, and do my clothes as well.
So yea, it was crazy!

I also went to prayer meeting as well, but I didn't get to go to all of it, but the part that I did went to was pretty good.

And I am going to go to sleep early!

It is going to happen!

Day 1: It Begins

Today is Day 1 of the trial that i spoke about. Seeing how the health message really works..

I'm excited and not scared. I just want wisdom and recipes so i know what to make and stuff..

I'm not sure what to write but through the day i will write stuff down, like the usual what i did today.

Pray for me people that pray! :D

and give me recipes as well :D

New President! :D

I'm now President (In training til Easter) of the Video Game Society :P

Awesome stuff ;]

may God help me do this properly :D

otherwise, day was good ;]

For the first time in what seems like a eon..

I have woken up and went to sleep early! :D

Praise God for that!
Now to keep doing it in order to regain a proper sleeping habit! :D
and also after 2moro i am going to go on the 10 day trial as well ;]
good times ;]

2 Points to me ;]

today was good ;]
i gotta admit.
hanging out with people in church; staying at johnson's house.
awesome stuff. gaming and all that jazz ;]
and i also got a house for next year! and its a huge house! :D

at times i wonder though what it will be like when i move into a house.
but at the same time, i am going to like it.

I have decided

To have a test.
Yep.
I am going to go ten days without eating meat, and following temperance.
What that means is basically this:
- No staying up late, sleep by 11.
- No eating in between meals.
- Exercise a bit more than I am now.

I'm going to see what happens and log each day of it. ;]

But for now, i need to use the meat I have, so it wont start just yet.
But You will know when it does :D

Thanks to Thandeka's influence, my decision is now more resolute ;]

:)

This should be something :D

Overall..

My day has been good. cant complain :P
and yea, not using grammar correctly.. blah blah.. :P
day was good, as in weather, atmosphere, and my book came for cooking :D
so yea, happy stuff =]
i also was thinking about how God values me; good times when i stop and realise that =]

need to do it more often =]

My Life!

The last days have been up and down indeed! Specially now that I have to look for a new job from thursday; yet there is hope for me yet!

Didnt go to House of Praise on Sabbath even though I wished I had now..

Today was long, and could of ended it better but because I stood her up, she was mad! >< So now she will text me when she is calmer.. So i will wait for that..

Work was ok.. I was trying to have no emotion but that didnt work at all..

Im not sad though; God has His hands in my life, so its going to be fine ;]

Aside from that, just home now listening to music and making notes for next week.. =]Good times and also i got housemates now! :D Zaid and Trevor and 3 of Zaid's friends so that is good! :D ANd VGS is good as well =]

So instead of focusing on the thorns, Im looking at what is going good in life, and praising God for both good and bad =]

^.^

A new day indeed! :D

Well today was up and down but ended on a up =] good times as always!

I got potential housemates so no worries about that! :D Praise God :D ^.^ (I knew He would answer that prayer =] )

the 2 practicals were ok, but man it was long! gotta go back for the electrical science though. oh well =]

vgs was good but it was a bit boring atm..

basically i wanted to come back and read that programming book now :D

heading to joe's in a bit so good stuff =]


and best part is..
NO LECTURES 2MORO XD

So much going on!

First off today..
Woke up and was 1 minute late to the electrical science lecture.. not bad for me :D

It was a good lecture, then came home and ate and gamed ;]
then went to computing! oh my days! It was just explaining the basics but still! it was awesome! :D
I was like XD all the time the lecturer spoke! :D

then i had math, which was really short- just a test back which i for 96% :D XD thanks God =]

then i handed in work and then went to electrical science again..
then work, and got there early =]

work was quiet and good =]:P

now home reading about programming ;]

good day overall =]

Something to think about..

Since I thought about the issues of the end of the world, I also thought about how people are reacting to it. Some people are indifferent, some are anxious, some are happy. What this blog is about is just my thoughts and belief about what is going and what is happening.

- We all know the world is going to end. There is no question about it.
But alot of people dont understand how the world will end or anything related..

It would take a lot of writing to explain everything and I dont know where to start in that case anyway. What I will do however is explain it in steps if I can and coherently so it makes sense.

I only advise people to have a open mind about this; if you have a closed one, then it will be pointless reading this.

Some people believe that human nature will destroy the planet, or something like a asteroid will throw the world into a ice age or etc... But the issues with that is that God is left out of the picture..

* Disclaimer: I said before to have a open mind; that's all I am asking; If you don't have one, then please don't read the following.
Its a big topic..

Well the only I can see to start this off is going back to the Garden Of Eden, where Adam and Eve had the whole of the newly created world to themselves for a time. No one could imagine what it was like. To try to compare today to then would do it injustice; it would be like finding a screw and saying where it came from originally and was joined to; it just wouldn't add up or make sense. Anyway enough lame metaphors..

Adam and Eve lost the world through giving the control over to Satan aka Lucifer, the first fallen being in a perfect universe.. People ask if God was so good, why did He let Satan live and not kill him off to avoid all of this? The answer was simple; God wanted to give Satan what Satan asked for, a chance to prove that if he had a government it would be better than God's without a doubt. But God at the same time warned Adam and Eve about Satan and told them to resist. They chose not to, and we're at the situation we are now..

* So what does this have to do with the world ending? I'm getting to that..

After they did this, God promised that a savior would come and claim the world back from Satan, which then started Satan on the assassination of the ages; to find the chosen of God and exterminate Him from the planet; that way, no-one would be saved and the world would belong to Satan.

Fortunately, Satan didn't know who and when this was to take place, but always vigilant, he waited. When Jesus was born, Satan tried to destroy, leading to the Cross, but instead caused the beginning of his end..

Fast Forward now to the Middle Ages...

Enter the Reformation.. Martin Luther vs Rome(the Papacy)


For now, I will leave it here.. Any comments are welcome..

Tonight Was A Good Night

All i can say about tonight was that I am glad it happened.
Pulse was amazing ;]

But before that, lets backtrack to the start of the day til now, which im on the internet blogging about my day.. and drinking cranberry juice with lemonade. XD Best drink ever XD

Woke up at 7:30 with a purpose of going to town and getting stuff done!
-Which i did! :D Even in the rain! (Booya rain!)
Went to town and got some minor stuff (mouthwash and toothbrush) then went to Gamestation, which i was surprised since the store was so small and didnt have what I wanted.. Oh well.. After that, I went to Cash Converters, which was the same, but at least i know where to go to get cheap deals.. After that, I went to.. ummm.. where was it.. Oh yea! then I went to a music store that sold all types of intstruments from banjos to violins to grand pianos! :D Then i saw the one store that made me :D
A MARTIAL ARTS WEAPON STORE!!!!
They had wooden swords and the lot.. I was like :O !
When I get my house next year, I am getting one! :D

After that, i walked around after trying to find cash converters.. which i did.. the store was bigger than expected, so just need to check back time and time again..

then i walked to argos, looked at some stuff then went into the back of the town through WHS Smith where there were loads of stores like 3, Carphone Warehouse, etc. Went into Phones 4 U, and the guy was trying to sell me a Blackberry! (Or persuade.. either way, dont like them.. Android is the way forward!) Thats for another post though.. :D

After I walked around then went to Rymans, got my stationery stuff and came home.. I was Happy =]
Ummm then I continued watching a documentary on cannabis. interesting stuff.. Then I played KOTR (Knights of the Old Republic- Star Wars game RPG)
After that had pizza and garlic bread =] YUM :D

Then I sat to watch Ratatouille - I think I spelt that right...
Anyway turned that off, and watched about the complexity of the cell =] still watching it now..

then went to Pulse which was amazing =]

Had great fun! :D

Went back to Fran's house and practiced for today later on, and now I'm home, with the drink done and me looking for some more :D

^.^ And note to Thandeka, I have Wall-e on DVD :D we can always watch it if you want :D

thats about it =]

Hmm

Social Day Today

I gotta admit; I thought this weekend was going to be good; turned out to be better than i expected... :D

Church was good today! :D I saw loads of ppl and ate loads of good food =]

Social was amazing =] Just glad I went; and 2moro should be good since im playing solo ^.^

There are some people at the social I like; but for now, who they are will be kept to myself. (No need to tell all now eh? :D )

Nevertheless, Thank God for today =]

Its A New Day.. New Year

Well Happy New Year everyone! :D

I'm happy because God kept me through!

Also a good friend of mine now started her blog =]

So i shall be looking forward to what she has to say! :D

(Hehe)

I was looking at old blogs and I was like wow, at some of them..

Now I am like.. I'm tired..

Just one blog.. Thats it..

Night =] ^.^