Its about time i do a new one..

Its been a long time, since i have done a blog..
a Proper one anyway..

Asda is treating me good cant complain =]

Staying in touch with old friends and making new ones as well.

Friends help along life's journey for sure.. Thanks Joycee for that quote =]

Also the weight training and cardio is paying off =]

Pictures soon!

Also I was thinking about why things happen in the world.. I know it is because of how it is, but things that are good are usually never reported.. And that sucks..

people want this world to be better; but it will only get worse and worse..

and in that time now,
we need to prepared for the big trouble that is ahead...


it will engulf the whole world..


and noone will be left out..

aside from that, im tired and just ahh... well tired :D

Got a driving lesson 2moro and buying a bike finally :D

as well as a interview 2moro at 2 =]

well thats it for now =]

No title..
Just words.. on a page...

Its been a long time since i wrote anything..
and part of me is happy and sad that i am writing..

I need to be a better person; a better Christian and a better someone overall..

I need the prayers of those i love to help me...

Things arent easy but noone said it would be.

God will help but I need to do my part and believe He will help me..

Thats all I can do...

Sanity works best when you dont force it into a box

Havent written in a long time..

Whether people read this or not.. different story...

I love my life; my job is ok, and my friends are good to me..

But right now, the way is dark.... I made a mistake by inviting someone over not knowing they liked me and when She found out, she is now in a state.

And now that i realise that, I am scared to the bone.

What do i do, realizing that my chance with this girl that i am good friends with could go up in smoke because of a error i did even in innocence?

I dont want to lose her respect, her trust or her liking for me.

But what if i crossed the line. Even though she understands, i am just a mess on the inside..

I messed up. 
I did wrong by inviting my friend over.
Even when i try to NOT think about this, I can't help BUT think about this. 


God help me please..


I didnt do this on purpose. Yet I am paying a hefty price for such a motive that wasnt 2 faced. 


I want to rip my heart out; I havent been in this much pain since.. since.. my ex.. and this right now, feels worse.. We arent even going out yet, and I feel this much pain and anguish.


Looking at myself, I see pain.. and things indescribable. I don't want to lose what I have been trying to get all this time...

Her Heart

What do I do???