Sanity works best when you dont force it into a box

Havent written in a long time..

Whether people read this or not.. different story...

I love my life; my job is ok, and my friends are good to me..

But right now, the way is dark.... I made a mistake by inviting someone over not knowing they liked me and when She found out, she is now in a state.

And now that i realise that, I am scared to the bone.

What do i do, realizing that my chance with this girl that i am good friends with could go up in smoke because of a error i did even in innocence?

I dont want to lose her respect, her trust or her liking for me.

But what if i crossed the line. Even though she understands, i am just a mess on the inside..

I messed up. 
I did wrong by inviting my friend over.
Even when i try to NOT think about this, I can't help BUT think about this. 


God help me please..


I didnt do this on purpose. Yet I am paying a hefty price for such a motive that wasnt 2 faced. 


I want to rip my heart out; I havent been in this much pain since.. since.. my ex.. and this right now, feels worse.. We arent even going out yet, and I feel this much pain and anguish.


Looking at myself, I see pain.. and things indescribable. I don't want to lose what I have been trying to get all this time...

Her Heart

What do I do???

Its been too long.... -__-

Well even though it has been too long there is lots of good news :D

In no particular order:

• I got a job at Asda after much praying =] 
• Someone likes me :D 
• exams soon ( how is that  a good thing?!)
• family is ok.. 
• my spiritual life is going up
• this isnt getting much punctuation....
• I am enjoying my life :D 
• God is amazing =] (What else is new? :P  ) 
• also being President of VGS aint bad :D 

Now aside from that, its raining at the moment, not too hard but still meh _-

But i am happy, no joyful because God is amazing :D 

It is Good!!

I got my PHOC results!! :D for those who are wondering part of my modules which is the computing part :P

I got 75% for my test! :D

and 72.9% for my weekly tests!!

I got so happy I done the Crash Dance!

=]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eIClP_pPAZo&feature=related seen here :D

all in all: BOOYA and thanks to God :D ^.^ 

Now to go and get those weights and pull up bar from Tesco :)