Its Late

But i am up.
not a night time late night person, but i am up.
but at the moment, i feel.. how can i put it..
sad.
He may feel like fearing to fail.
i feel like i am fearing to fail and fearing in general.
over what?
because i feel at this moment in time that i did something.
though i didnt.
so why feel like this?
sometimes i wonder if i torment myself because i like doing it.
i dont, but sometimes i wonder.