If i can say anything it would be that today was about the most rollercoaster day this year so far...
i woke up 4 in the morning for absolutely no reason.. :S and had the most vivid dream ever...
went to school, and then met her at school =] it was good :D
then i got to do some work.. which kinda turned into talking to ppl...
then i got to talking to her.. but then we didnt get to do much.. i think it was because i was nervous.. :(
anyway.. time went like crazy.. and still didnt do anything with her =[
then my mind started to run away.. and i got scared and nervous at the same time..
i wanted to hug her like mad but there were other ppl there and i was scared that they would say something so i didnt...
then i started to feel clouds of despair coming over me.. i felt like i was going into this and that for some reason, she wasnt going to same way as me..
so then i became quiet and i thought that she wouldnt want to notice me..
and i felt alone... very much alone..
so i put some music on and went on one of those walks.. everyone has them.. when u have to be alone, but you want someone to be wanting to be with you..
afterwards, i spoke to Rasheed and i thought that i was putting too much into this, and that i might get hurt... so i didnt know how to feel..
then i came back and i sat by myself.. i felt sick inside.. i wanted to cry.. to be honest.. but i didnt..
then school ended, and she asked if i wanted to hug and i said it was too crowded and she didnt.. but i really wanted her to.. =[
so then i left school with Rasheed and Alex around and spoke while i thought about what happened.. and what may happened..
Alex and Rasheed cheered me up and i was feeling better. the martial arts was today so i called her and asked if she could make it.. and she said she could so i was like :D cos then i could talk to her and be close to her.. which was what i wanted. then i went home and revised.. exam 2moro!!! i am ready tho so i am ok. now as i waited to go with her, she told me she couldnt make it.. i was like :/ but couldnt do much.. but at least she wanted to come..
then i went to the place to find that it wasnt on today.. so i was like :/.
now i came home and had lasagna with naan bread.. so good=] now i am waiting to go and meet her.. :D
so all in all the day was a turnaround.. nice :D
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